Ouch my mouth.

I just had THE spiciest shrimp scampi EVAR.

...and my boyfriend just received an iPhone. Son of a bitch.

Space...ar...doest...work

my.dackwards."d".doesmt.work.

ammmmd...my.upside.dowm.u(comes.after.m).doesmt.work.either.

FUCK
YOU
KEYdOARD.
YOU
WERE
EXPEMSIVE!

The Bridge

I saw this on IFC. It's about people who choose the Golden Gate Bridge to end their lives. This director filmed for a full year (2004) and captured 24 of the jumps on camera. They also added in interviews with people who attempted it, the survivors of those that did it, and witnesses that were on the bridge when it happened.

This isn't some morbid "FACES OF DEATH" kind of shiz. It's professionally done with really insightful interviews. What's interesting is the pattern of behaviors that most of these people showed (according to their friends and family) prior to jumping. Watch the full thing here.

Cant... stop... playing.

Must...get... past... level 50.
PLAY at your own risk. Just make sure you clear your schedule.

Dear Walla Walla, WA:

I hope you all get explosive diarrhea. The kind that leaves your asshole burning for hours after you shit. I failed my LTC test tonight because of you. Someday, I'l place a flaming bag of poo somewhere in your city.

Walla Walla, WA goes onto the pink belt. Not the white belt. Now I know... And I always will.

Still in my pants.

Still in my head.

Phantoms

Also...

I'm going to go on a picture uploading frenzy sometime next week. I have so many good ones that are chillin on J's camera & on my laptop.

/win

My 2 weeks of stressing and crying and being productive and shutting down my social life/spending sprees has paid off. I have successully:

-started work at UPS

-gotten new license plates ($20)

-gained 6 pounds (gimme 2 weeks and some lean cuisines, and they'll be gone)

-paid & obtained 2009 tags for my car ($155)

-hunted & renewed car insurace ($300)

-enrolled & paid for school ($289)

-effed up my sleeping schedule (once school starts it'll get better)

-begun painting again (<3)

-finished my 3rd painting EVER (Zoolfox)

-lost contact with my lovies :(

You win some, you lose some. All in all, I feel pretty damn good. I've got $250 in my savings account for the just-in-case shit and $153 in my checking for whatever I need this month. Operation STOP BEING POOR has officially begun. Now I just need to stop being so goddamn bruised so that I can wear shorts & skirts again.

To my dearest

I've started painting again. This next one's for you.

Reality Check

I thought I'd hit rock bottom this week. I was hysterical the other day thinking horrible, horrible things and crying myself to sleep. Now it seems silly. I mean, I'm dealing with alot right now... but it's nothing I can't deal with, and nothing I can't change. It's sad that it takes the horrible, horrible things that happen to the people I know to make me realize that things could be worse. Much, much worse. Today, I am thankful. Tomrorow, I'll pull myself together and do what I need to do.