Weird.

Oak Park Cemetery. That's where Toni's buried. What a crazy coincidence. I'm halfway between comforted and weirded out.

Her viewing is tomorrow. Services on friday. Again, I'm getting that horrible feeling in my stomach that I got 5 years ago when Toni passed away. Viewings are awful... I know they're supposed to comfort you and give you closure but it leaves a terrible image in my head. Maybe I'll sit near the back this time... pay my respects to the Santee family and then go straight to the back.

I don't know how I'd get through this without the guys there. Shit, I don't know how Chris is dealing with this. I don't know how any one is. I don't know what I'm typing anymore. I should stop.